i get temporiry friends, then loose them.
this is a freaking unfair world for me, i'm surrounded with people who claims to enjoyed this world. it increases the contrast between i and them. when i say this i'm afraid because what i say shows that i'm weak and mentally unhealthy and as a reasult add the difficult people communicate with me.
i pretend, to be energetic, exited, reasonable, while the truth is i'm unsure, scared.
i don't figure out how this world works.